When your heart says yes but your mouth says maybe

Ever been ambivalent?

Here’s what ambivalence really looks like:

• Saying “maybe” when you mean “yes”

• Overthinking the same decision for 3 weeks straight

• Looking for signs when deep down... you already know what you want to do

• Saying “I’ll start next week” (again)

I know that dance.
I recently felt it creeping up right before I stepped on stage to host an event.

Now, I’ve emceed before. I’ve spoken on stages.
But this time felt different.
Bigger crowd. Bigger expectations.
And that inner voice got real loud:
“Don’t mess up. Don’t go too big. What if they don’t vibe with your energy?”

Right there—ambivalence.
My heart was saying, “Let’s go!”
But my mind was like, “Let’s hide.”

For a second, I wanted to shrink.
Play it safe. Tone it down.

But then I caught myself.
And I said out loud (yes, to myself backstage):
“This moment doesn’t need a watered-down version of me.”

I stepped out. I showed up. I owned it.
And the response?
Pure connection. Real energy. People who needed my full self.

That’s what happens when we refuse to let ambivalence win.
We stop negotiating with doubt.
We stop waiting for perfect confidence.
We move forward—with courage anyway.

So let me ask you:
Where are you holding back when you should be showing up?

You don’t need the full plan.
You don’t need to feel 100%.
You just need to say:
No Excuse Today.

Let’s keep going.


Javonne